Sunday, June 26th, I depart for L.A. to spend four weeks working on my craft at the OperaWorks Advanced Artist program. This will be my first real summer program, as well at my first time on the West Coast. Needless to say, I am a ball of nerves.
Don't get me wrong! I'm beyond excited, but as with any new situation, excitement is often accompanied by fear of the unknown. My vocal journey has been picking up speed this past year, and this is just another rev of the engine, but I've always found momentum a bit scary. At first the mere thought of the program set my heart racing, so I chose to focus my energy on planning my vacation with my boyfriend after the program ends. After I had exhausted the planning options for that, I threw myself into the music and mailing supplies. Now I've thrown myself into packing, and as the day approaches, surprisingly, I find the excitement naturally beginning to quell the nerves.
I have wanted to attend this program for years, and now I finally have the chance. I am scared of throwing myself outside my comfort zone, but at the same time I know that's exactly what I need to be doing. I am on the brink of something big (so people have told me, and I'm just now starting to believe them) and I need to take this leap of faith in my own abilities, my own STRENGTH, and charge forward. I'm looking forward to facing my fears, learning from them, growing from them and finding out just what I am capable of. Here goes nothing!